| maybe i do have a poker face
when u were telling me how much u loved her no wait STILL love her...i smiled and tried to be there for u... someone you could open up to and talk to...be someone who would listen and support u...when ur own friends didnt want to
but all the while i was being torn inside
i wanted to cry but i didnt want u to see
i felt so numb to what u were telling me
its not easy talking to the person u love talk about how they loved someone else and try and keep a straight face and encourage them to do what their heart tells them which probably is go after the other person
your love for me is nothing compared to the love you have for her and i dont want to be second in ur hear..i want to be first
i dont ever want to go through that again
no matter if its right or wrong...i just wanted to be with you
but since thats not going to happen =/
i just wish the best of luck between the two
i love u enough to want u to be happy
even when it means happy isnt with me
and its with her ...
i just wish someone would care and love me the way you do with her...your both lucky to have each other
lets see how much longer i can be there for u without u knowing how much it hurts for me
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| so ive been having a lot of conflicting feelings on various and complicated topics
ill just mention one...
my dog that ive had for the last 2 years
has bitten the electric cords in the backyard
made a mess of the plants
and picked up the turtle in her mouth and then dropped it
im not responsible enough to own a dog right now w school and other stuff
so my parents decided to get rid of her
they put an ad up in penny savers
today after i came home some people stopped by to look at her
this one guy who i guess lives in newark saw her and bought her
he smokes and shes going to be an inside dog...i hope he takes care of her cause she was my bao bei
i admit i def could have been a better owner and took better care but i still love her
i didnt even get a chance to say goodbye....and i miss her
just knowing that shes not outside when i go out there
im sad =(
the few ppl that i have talked to...thanks for trying to cheer me up
that makes me happy knowing that u guys care for me
but doesnt change the fact that shes gone and i might never ever see her again
and thats only one of the things im going through....
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| ok so im trying to figure this out myself but im a little stuck...help please?
ok sooo...i met these two girls on this website...i started talking to them...hoping to go somewhere with them well call one T that lives in la and the other one C that lives in hayward...and i guess after a period of time talking to T i guess C found Ts profile on my page and added her and they started talking...so its already weird enough that 2 girls that i want to try things with are talking to each other...but then T comes up to visit...stays over at Cs house which is cool and T had to do stuff so i didnt have a chance to met T...and this weekend C went down to visit T and probably staying over at Ts house...
now all of this is cool..nothing wrong with friends visiting each other...well theyre probably fooling around...but the thing that i need help figuring out is....y the fuck am i jealous?
ahh wheres jenny when u need her haha
but yah advice ideas comments?
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